This month marked the one year anniversary of my mom’s death from cancer. It has been a bittersweet time, thinking about her, celebrating my birthday, and finding ways to reconcile the reality that those two days are the same.
I wanted to take this opportunity to share a song that I wrote last summer for the 6 month anniversary of the hardest birthday I’ve ever had.
Happy Birthday
Standing there beside the hospital bed
Didn’t know when it would be the end
Till suddenly it’s now.
“Love you Mom”, you write it on the wall
Why’d it have to be this day at all?
I’m so sorry.
You are too young
She was too young
Can goodbyes be too short but so long?
Hold me close
You don’t have to wipe away your tears.
It’s your birthday
I hope you know how much you’re loved.
It’s your birthday
I pray God’s blessings from above.
I know it’s hard, the grief is near,
Balloons and candles disappear,
But may you feel God’s love today.
It may not be happy,
But it’s your birthday.
She is gone
Life carries on
Can goodbyes be too short but so long?
Hold me close
You don’t have to wipe away your tears.
It’s your birthday
I hope you know how much you’re loved.
It’s your birthday
I pray God’s blessings from above.
I know it’s hard, the grief is near,
Balloons and candles disappear,
But may you feel God’s love today.
It may not be happy,
But it’s your birthday
I hope you know how much you’re loved.
It’s your birthday
I pray God’s blessings from above.
The hurt is deep, you feel so lost,
Just know that I have not forgot,
And may you feel God’s love today.
It may not be happy,
But it’s your birthday.
